Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Awakening

If my life can be explained apart from the Holy Spirit, I’ve failed. I don’t want anyone to be able to look at my life and make sense of it apart from Jesus Christ’s working through me. If I want to radically follow Him, this has to be true. I don’t see room in the Bible for any other way. I don’t want to just be nice to people. I want supernatural kindness, kindness that looks different from what the world is used to. I don’t want to be happy. I want real joy. I don’t want to do good deeds and feed the little kids in Africa. I want to take up my cross and follow Him wherever He leads. I want to pour out everything I have. I’m tired of being a “good Christian.” It’s not enough. How can I hold anything back, how can I keep living a safe life when He bled Himself dry for me?

Holy Spirit, come and stir in me. Wake me up. I don’t want to walk through my days asleep and unaware of what You’re doing. I want to be a part of it! I want to be led by You to do things beyond what I’m capable of. I want to live a life that points directly to Christ. I want my life to display my weakness and therefore clearly point to Your power and presence here. Jesus, take me walking on water and teach me to keep my eyes fixed on You the whole time. I trust you, I surrender and I ask You to come. Come and fill me. I am praying for an awakening.

4 comments:

  1. This morning I read Philippians 3 and your words echo Paul's words, "I want to know Christi". Your words are powerful. It minds me of the saying, "When people see me, I do not want them to just know that I am a Christian, I want them to know Christ."

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  2. wow. It's almost as though you spelled my heart out in your blog. My prayer is just that.

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  3. Hi Natalie,
    My name's Scottlyn. A mutual friend of ours told me to come and check out your blog. Our "friend" is my pastor's wife Lindsey Gerdes! God has put it on my heart to go into full time Christian service and this post is where I am right now. I just wanted to say hi and tell you that your blog has really encouraged me. Can't wait to read more about your adventures with Jesus!

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    1. Hey Scottlyn! This is Natalie's mom. I wanted to let you know that Natalie is in a different part of Uganda right now - a town in the north called Gulu - and she doesn't have internet access for the next few days; so if you don't get a reply right away, that's why. She will be so excited to hear from you when she gets back to Kampala though! Pastor J and Lindsey were huge influences in her life, and it's awesome to hear from another student who is learning from them. Also, feel free to friend her on Facebook or like the facebook page 'theadventuresofnataliebrown' so you can see her pictures and stuff. It sounds like God is preparing you to do some huge things for His kingdom! - Donna

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