If my life can be explained apart from the Holy Spirit, I’ve failed. I don’t want anyone to be able to look at my life and make sense of it apart from Jesus Christ’s working through me. If I want to radically follow Him, this has to be true. I don’t see room in the Bible for any other way. I don’t want to just be nice to people. I want supernatural kindness, kindness that looks different from what the world is used to. I don’t want to be happy. I want real joy. I don’t want to do good deeds and feed the little kids in Africa. I want to take up my cross and follow Him wherever He leads. I want to pour out everything I have. I’m tired of being a “good Christian.” It’s not enough. How can I hold anything back, how can I keep living a safe life when He bled Himself dry for me?
Holy Spirit, come and stir in me. Wake me up. I don’t want to walk through my days asleep and unaware of what You’re doing. I want to be a part of it! I want to be led by You to do things beyond what I’m capable of. I want to live a life that points directly to Christ. I want my life to display my weakness and therefore clearly point to Your power and presence here. Jesus, take me walking on water and teach me to keep my eyes fixed on You the whole time. I trust you, I surrender and I ask You to come. Come and fill me. I am praying for an awakening.